I know no one reads these really but I need to rant for a second.

I know what I want but these feelings I’m getting are just so confusing and I cant tell anyone without looking like an asshole or making someone sad/mad. I need to get out of this town and hopefully things go back to how they were. I hope I can change back to who I was. I just cant help but think about the worst. I always put others feelings in front of mine. I honestly would want other people to be happy before me. Its bad sometimes.